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How fricken cool is Veronica Mars?! Jane and I finished the first season on Sunday and WOAH (we've developed this ritual where we spend an entire day lazying around, creating new brownie recipes, and eating said brownies while watching 8 hours of Mars). So good. I was floored by the way it turned out, I fricken love that show. Now I'll just have to wait for a substantial amount of new episodes to come out so that we can have another Mars fest.
As previously posted, I had a great weekend. Jane and I had to house-sit for her uncle, so it was really nice to have the weekend to ourselves and be in a different atmosphere (as opposed to just having MY house to ourselves). Plus, her uncle is an award winning composer - he has actual film awards, most notably for being the Music Editor of Shine. How fricken cool is that?! Almost as cool as Veronica Mars. And so, I got to spend the weekend sitting behind something that I have wanted for as long as I can remember... a grand piano. I hadn't sat behind a piano for about 4 years, it was amazing. I could just feel the inspiration flooding back through me. God damn, I miss music. It has always been the most natural thing for me, almost as if it's my purpose. I'm going to start sounding really lame now, but I just let it wash everything away - the shit week I'd had at work, my family issues... Perhaps I am a fool for letting someone force me to doubt myself and give it all up. I need to be creative, not sitting at a desk and answering a phone.
I bought a VTAC Guide last week, so I shall start perusing it more thoroughly over the coming weeks. When I told Mum that I was considering going back to school, all she could say was "I've heard that one before". But, I think I'm pretty set on it this time. I want to have a look at mid-year intake for next year. I just need to figure out what it is that I really want to do. The only careers that I have ever been completely interested in are somehow either related to music, film, or writing - none of which are stable. But that never used to bother me, I never yearned for stability. So, what changed? Were they all just foolish childhood fantasies and I have now grown up? Or has turning corporate and working for a bank just made me money hungry and forced me to forget what I really want out of life? Any opinions?
Less than 7 weeks now until I leave. I can't wait, I'm so excited. This trip will be such a life-changing experience for me, I have wanted this for so long. This is what I have been slaving away for. I just hope that I'm not expecting too much out of it. Is it wrong for me to hope that I will return with a new perspective on my life and a better idea of what it is that I need to do?
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Hi Matt :)
It´s good to hear some news about how things are going with the two of you. I miss Jane tremendously (and you of course) and I really can´t wait to get home and spend some time with you peoples. Seems like you will be gone before I get back though which is a shit. When I actually spoke to Jane a few weeks back she told me of your trip plans ect, and basically you are going to be leaving one week and I am going to be getting home the next! How long exactly are you gone for? What the hell is it with all of us going off and doing these things? Me to Hamo and then overseas, Steve back to Canada and now you off for a while. Hopefully we will all be back in the one place sometime soon though, like the good old days LOL
I can´t really help you with the music thing, I guess I´ve never really had a strong connection to it. But I can relate in other areas. Design was my first love, I studied it at school, I went to uni for it and I really really enjoyed it. Then I went back to uni and got a PR/Journo degree. Why? Because the fashion industry is one of the hardest industries to crack in Australia and I needed a back up. I have never let go of my design related ambitions though and I will return to them one day. I guess I tried to maintain a balance between what I really enjoy doing and something that will ensure I´ll have the backing to do it in the future. Does that make sense?
And, finally, your trip... well I think I can help you with that one. There is NO DOUBT in my mind that you will return to Australia with a different perspective on life, love, your family, friends, australia, the environment, politics, art, history - absolutely everything! Whether that changed perspective will help you in life when you get back to Australia, only time will tell, but put it this way, it´s not gonna hurt is it? After all the shit I went through and all the crap I got thrown at me for picking up and doing this trip, I realise now more than ever that it is exactly what I needed to do and the timing couldn´t have been better. It´s not as if I just did this on a whim either, I had been thinking about working in QLD for years and slowly planning my trip for even longer. It´s a big thing, and definitely the hardest thing I have ever done. I don´t know if you are traveling alone but if you are, be prepared to either fall over in a heap and cry like a baby for hours or laugh at yourself histerically because that´s pretty much the two extremes you will experience everytime you move you and your pack (essentially your life) from one place to another. As for what you do and how you feel in between moves, who knows... lol That´s what makes it so exciting and so incredibly frustrating :)
I can´t believe I only have two months left... on the one hand I am sad to be coming home, but on the other I´ve never wanted to see my loved ones so much in my whole life! And, believe it or not, a regular routine also seems quite appealing about now. Go figure :)
Hopefully talk to you soon bud, say hi to Jane for me :)
Andi oxox
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